Satanic Panic In The Attic

The Kids Of Tomorrow Don't Need Today

2006-09-20T17:03:14Z

So this is Julisa, posting what might be the first and last new entry in a long time. And since I'm mainly talking to you guys, I love you three. And miss you, a lot. And haven't called you and in so doing I am a bitch, yes, I know.

So high school isn't as tough as I thought. Maybe. But at least the classes are fairly easy.

Random Updates:

Imma get emo glasses.

Jay is gone from vicinity of me forevermore

Terra + Mitch, then Terra-Mitch, and now Terra + Mitch again

I'm getting my tongue pierced this Saturday. Wish me luck.

My computer should, with luck, be back within weeks, not months.

I still want my place on th... :(

My mp3 player broke again and it wasn't Vicki's fault.

I had to go to a school where I knew no one for exactly one day, then transferred to C.E.C

Confessions:

I miss all of you so much, and I'm scared you're forgetting me and not caring.

Only one little cut since a long long time. Months. Happy.

Food thing bad. People noticing...

All the yucky boys are almost gone from vicinity of me.

I'm finding myself doing homework daily, scaring me lots.

I like Buttons.

Only one person called me the whole two month period of summer. *dead*

....For my phone number, ask Terra. But don't give it out, because mother, unlisted, blah and thing.

Messages to you three.

Vicki, I love and miss you and don't know why I'm doing the not talking thing. I need to see you more and talk more than I do. Call me, please soon.

Jen, I also love you and you are also loved and unforgotten, especially in regards to drugs and underwear and tallness.

Emily, I love/miss you too, and you're beautiful and smart. Though I clearly shouldn't have to say it and you should just know.

Infinite hugs and kisses. If I'm lucky you will all bear witness to the greatness that is a pierced tongue.

<3<3<3<3

Russia's Greatest Love Machine

2006-05-22T23:00:29Z

Mhm. I'm now soaked with water everywhere.
More talk about how I'm leaving.
More lectures and scolding.
I'm not in a good mood.
Not in the least.

--Signing off now with fury dripping everywhere,
Julisa.

I Believe You Have My Stapler

2006-05-22T18:22:52Z

--So it was obviously the best weekend ever.

What with the fbaking and all.
I would tell you lots, but I will later.
I have to put in my Livehelp hour and Helplink before fl00f fires my ass.
<3

Ten Things

2006-05-02T21:35:53Z

Yes, guys, I thiefed your meme. But no tagging for me. I'm just too lazy.

Ten Things

001
List 10 things you want to say to people but you know you never will.
002
Don't say who they are or who you're referring to.
003
Never discuss it again.
004
Tag 5 people to do the same.

1. I honestly, really, and truly don't care. At all. And at this point, I don't think I ever will.

2. Sometimes it's hard to describe how much I hate you. And I know you'd die if you knew all the things you did to me unknowingly. That makes me laugh. Hard.

3. Your perception of yourself is honestly screwed royally. And you think mine is too. Just remember that I'm going to win... because you're not turning this into a full blown obsession like I am.

4. Sometimes I'm scared because things between us are so perfect. Sometimes I'm waiting for it to screw up and end. But you're you. Don't let anyone make you otherwise. And it's sad, because I'd pick you before I'd pick anyone else. Even members of my family. That's not even sad, it's kind of sweet really.

5. Sometimes you horrify me, but other times I'll want to ravage you. I don't understand this feeling myself, but I know in my heart that it isn't love, and it never ever will be.

6. You broke me. And you or she or they will never ever know.

7. I wish I could be your idea of perfect. I'm trying as hard as I can. You just wait in the wings until I'm done. But by the time I reach what I want, I won't need you anymore. You'll regret pushing me.

8. I NEVER want to stop.

9. It's time for the old me to die... what, this isn't what you wanted? Too bad. It's already begun.

10. I know you didn't do it now. But I don't care. And you know what? I take pleasure and amusement from your pain.
Yes. I used you. Yes. I liked it. Yes. I'm laughing while you're crying. A million times over.

Played Doctor For Five Minutes Flat.

2006-03-18T15:16:03Z

Hey guys. Bad mood. Terra's here. She extends kisses to the lot of you. My mom is back. Ew. Everything is ew.
In short, very pissed off mood.
No, I don't want to explain about it.
Bye now.
<3

ps.--I'm still not able to access TH.
>.<

darkdiva65 @ 2006-03-16T22:00:00

2006-03-17T02:08:56Z

THE NEVERENDING COMMANDMENTS OF THE MIGHTY

1. Never try to understand the Almighty Ones. One will hurt oneself in so doing.

2. Never deprive the Almighty ones of their ''needs''. These needs can be described in full detail by the Priestess of Cuff and the Addicus Acolyte.

3. Ye shall not eat the raspberry jello, but throw it out of the turret upon the passer-by peasants unfortunate skulls.

4. Ye shall like what the Almighty tell ye to like. Such as people, music, clothing, websites, and the like. Ye shall do what we bid.

5. Ye shall partake daily of the most sacred of arts, being slash and yaoi. Ye shall learn of these from Slashvixen 3m.

6. Ye shan't not be in love with the following: Leather, boysecks, cuffs, and The Me.

7. Ye shall use the words 'not not' whenever applicable, as well as the appropriate apostrophes in words such as ca;ke which are not pronounced as CAY-CK, but rather as KACK-EE.

8. Ye shall know the grammar of the Gods. Be it Peni, Snarry, Ca;ke, or Figglesquatchchick.

9. Ye shall pay homage to the forbearing god Severus.

10. Ye shall flambay your other religions in your petty mortal sidedishes, such as Lipton Rice, or noodles, or even lasagna. Ye shall cast all aside save us.

11. You will not hug oompa loompas.

......I bid the rest of the Almighty to add to this Bible as they see fit.

--Addicus Acolyte out.

darkdiva65 @ 2006-03-16T21:50:00

2006-03-17T01:50:10Z

I win.

Hah.

Take My Hand And Be Alive

2006-03-12T13:41:33Z

Hello there. I'm having a pretty boring break so far.
I think that the highlights are going to be sleeping, and not much else.
Not much to say today.
<3

The Ultimate Feeling

2006-03-11T16:45:45Z

March break's started. Mom's leaving tomorrow. Dad's coming up. I think Terra's mad at me. x_X
Good lord. I hate Mitchell so much. Anyway... I'm going to go mix the three different versions of Personal Jesus with the new dj program I downloaded.
<3

Fatal Attraction

2006-03-09T21:34:06Z

Anyway, I'm actually starting to maybe get the upper hand on all of this food business. Which makes me in a little better mood. Oh wait, lovely mood. Guess what? Mom saw my arms yesterday. Yay yay and more yay. Gotta go. The beast baby calls
adieu.

Rock It Til You Drop It

2006-03-08T17:02:33Z

Hey you all. Day off from school today. Ricky's stopped swelling a bit, still a little sore. Still another month to clean him. Terra was having a really bad day today, to say the least. Stuff with her home situation. She's better now, and I'm glad, but I'm still afraid.
I better get off before Ryley yells at me, and before I get fired from th for not helping the little beasters.
xo
Julisa

A Joke Of A Romantic Stuck To My Tongue

2006-03-05T17:11:32Z

..The story of Unecessary Hole. I have decided to name it Ricky.

The piercer was an awesomely awesome emo-glasses chick. Though the tattoo artist scared me a bit. He was all 'I look like I should live in Guysborough but I dooon't'. The whole thing didn't take any more than five minutes. Terra was more afraid then I was. There was mouthwash, alcohol swab, pen mark where I wanted it (I picked the middle instead of the side on a whim.), clamp to pull the lip out, then she pierced me. The whole thing barely hurt, like a pinch for a quarter of a second really. Breathe in, needle's through. Then a sizeable ring was pushed through and a ball into that ring with small pliers. I have to get it taken off with pliers when I want a new one.

It didn't hurt much and was only a bit sore, except when I moved my mouth. Hahaha. After that we went to the movies where Jessica told me it looked great and we also saw my gym teacher. :P I made Terra kiss me and she said it felt weird. :) At the movies, it hurt to smile, so I was sucking on ice while laughing my ass off.

..Swelling peaks at seventy two hours, and so far it hasn't swelled much, so if it doesn't by tomorrow, I'm good to go.
I have to rinse Ricky with mouthwash after every time I eat and clean him once a day with antibacterial soap.

..I heart Ricky.
<3

Nasty Shivers Run Down My Spine

2006-03-03T01:45:29Z

...Guess what day it is tomorrow, guys? Exactly. Piercing day. w00ts for everyone. *passes around w00ts*
I'm staying home from school since Egypt is sick. Imma take care of her. And miss gym while I'm at it. Terra's coming over to spend the night after she comes to my appointment. I don't care if Nick doesn't come. :) Or if we don't go to the movies.;)

I'm so extremely excited... wish me luck, and if no one does before tomorrow, then I wish it to myself.

*unecessary holes dance*

<3

The Music Do

2006-03-01T18:52:15Z

...I won champion in my chess division. I also got my course selection booklet for next year. But really, what's the point of picking courses I won't be around for? OOYM has broken up and reformed. Tragedy. Terra is going to get her lungs examined. She and Nick are both supposed to come with me Friday and then go to the movies. Dad's supposed to come up soon. I say supposed because most of these promises are never follow through with.
...Heart upon heart,
Julisa.
<3

Whoah. I Can't Take It.

2006-02-28T00:35:08Z

So-so day. Mom didn't wake me up so I was extremely pissed. But I missed gym, so that's okay. School was boring. I can't type tonight. I wore my handcuffs on my belt today a la Vicki. And I got hella sexed at lunch. Lmao.
After school.. I babysat for a while, talked to It for a long while. Til his phone went dead. Currently waiting for his call back. He was looking at lovely bass guitars online for me. Because apparently, when I get mine from Teh Daddy, I get to be in a band. Who knew? :P

Anyway, another revelation. David Callahan likes me. o.o Apparently he 'hits on me all the time, and if I can't see that I'm blonder than Nick thought'. Hahaha. David's nice. It's kind of funny, I could almost smell the green monster's fetid breath. Which delighted me more than words could say. It's nice knowing that he cares a little. And I honestly had no idea about David. But apparently he told Nick he likes me. *shrugs*

I really love my Social Code. All the songs are on my Lyra. Thanks to Emm3h.
:D

--Working on phon3h privileges. :P
<3

I Will Not Follow You Into A Perfect Grave

2006-02-27T00:03:15Z

So I'm back from The Me's. Obviously. 'Twas a great weekend.
Included:

-Three pairs of handcuffs.
-Green tape.
-Black dye and also die.
-Faces.
-Pink hair dye.
-Handcuff earrings.
-Social Code!

Anyway. That was awesome. I spent most of the way home with my lovely bearded man, and the guy with the tower. Also asking the hockey cowboy for quarters.
:)

--I return to find he's in a somewhat depressed mood again. And he also hung up on us. :(
I hope things are better tomorrow.
<3

Hatred Strips Her And Leaves Her Naked

2006-02-23T22:43:30Z

..You know what? I think I might be actually getting the upper hand.
Of everything.
Every single thing.
<3

The Beast And The Harlot

This shining city built of gold, a far cry from innocence
There's more than meets the eye round here look to the waters of the deep
A city of evil

There sat a seven-headed beast, ten horns raised from his head
Symbolic woman sits on his throne but hatered strips her and leaves her naked
The Beast and the Harlot

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird and makes us drink
The poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the Great

The city dressed in jewels and gold, fine linen, Myrrh and pearls
Her plagues will come all at once as her mourners watch her burn
Destroyed in an hour

Merchants and captains of the world, sailors, navigators too
Will weep and mourn this loss with her sins piled to the sky
The Beast and the Harlot

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird and makes us drink
The poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the Great

The day has come for all us sinners
If your not a servant you'll be struck to the ground
Flee the burning, greedy city
Looking back on her to see there's nothing around
I don't believe in fairytales and no one wants to go to Hell
But we made the wrong decision and it's easy to see
Now if you wanna serve above or be a king below with us
Your welcome to the city where your future is set forever

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird and makes us drink
The poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the Great

She's a dwelling place for demons
She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird and makes us drink
The poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings
Fallen now is Babylon the Great

The Poisoned Wine To Fornicating With Our Kings

2006-02-23T14:20:11Z

...And I quote:

"I'm really glad it wasn't you. Because if you weren't here, my life would be pretty horrible and meaningless right now. Plus, I would've joined you a bit ago."

....I smile enormously now.
<3

The Beast And The Harlot

2006-02-22T20:08:53Z

...Omg squ33 sp4zz like whoah.
News Bulletin.
Jisi made an appointment to get her lip pierced today.

Friday, March 3rd.
6:00

:):):)

But she doesn't wanna wait that loooooong.
So long to waaaaait.
:D

<3

When I Close My Eyes, It's You I See

2006-02-21T01:47:00Z

..Better days. Better days.
After school tomorrow, I'm going shopping, dinner, and hopefully piercing. :) So I'm excited for that. My only iffy problem right now is what's going to happen over March break.
Hey, at least this time I've got a full blown confession of feelings. :D
So I'm happy for now.
I'm enjoying Vicki's specialness and my rare good nerd lurve mood.
Can't wait for this weekend.
Mall goths with my dearests.
<3

Th Love.

2006-02-19T02:15:07Z

Oh yeah, and I forgot. Rob was my only TH love who sent me a pm.

Being love with Supermod= Supermod for meee.
I'm going to go be a good volunteer and answer requests now.
<3

Douse Yourself In Cheap Perfume

2006-02-15T01:18:52Z

Yes, I'm posting a lot today. Update on the my b-day front.
Good chance I've broken the mom about my lip piercingness.
Good chance I'm getting a PINK GUITAR! :p:p

Teh yayyy.
<3

I Reach For The One Who Bleeds Like Me

2006-02-15T01:13:56Z

:) Put in a fairly good day today. Terra and Nick no longer fighting. Talked to the Me for a while. :)
Found some awesome new music... but got noooo flowers. Poor me. Anyway. I still don't like V-Day. :D I'd forgotten that I wrote earlier.
:p

Can you tell
That I pick my poison well
That I have no more to sell to you
Is it really that important that I settle down?
Does it really even matter that I have my doubts?
I search for the one who bleeds
I reach for the one who bleeds

Please help me take this all away
And bleed like me

Can You Bleed Like Me?

2006-02-14T19:22:23Z

Ok, so I'm a bit better now.
Terra and Nick aren't fighting. But I do really really hate Valentine's Day. So much. It's only invented to make single people feel bad. That being said, even if I wasn't single, I'd still hate it. It's just based on commercialism.

Silly thing is. I've been invited to a Valentine's Day dance. But I cannot go. No. Can't go. Mom is going somewhere with her 'boyfriend' and I have to stay home. It would've been kinda nice. But anyway.
Yeah. Here's to being single and hating Valentine's Day with horrible passion.
<3

Take Me Away From Me

2006-02-13T16:14:31Z

I am fine. I am fine. I am fine.
Terra and Nick are having a blood feud. Terra is sicker than she lets on. I'm going to end up doing nothing but being with my mother on my birthday. Valentine's day is going to make me scream in misery. He doesn't love me.
But I am fine.

She promises they will make up by my birthday. I don't think so.
I'm so tired, so tired of being in the fucking middle all the time.
I hate this.
She lied. She likes Jay.
She lied and went to the movies with him instead of us.
I am so angry. So so angry.
And if I don't pick sides, he'll hate me.
I know he will.
<3